Ok well I got up and weighed myself straight away today for my diet. Not going to publish my weight but MY GOD I am shocked. I know I had put on weight and was a lard arse but didn't think it was that bad - my poor horse!!!

Anyway, seeing how lardy I am am has made me more determined to shift the weight.

Today has been a better day. I am still screwed with regards to what to do with my car :S It is getting worse by the day and I have no idea how long it is going to last. I have had to resort to going online and applying for a couple of high interest loans. I have no other option. I am already in debt and don't want to take out anymore but what other option do I have? No one in my family is able to help me out, I have zilch in my bank so I have to try this. Currently I only work mornings and have asked about increasing my hours. Work have said I can increase them but by working evenings as well. I didn't want to do this but I definately am now. I need to sort my life out bigtime. If I knew my car would last until I could save up a bit, so a couple of months then I wouldn't bother with the loan. Will have to see what comes up I think.

Anyway, diet wise I have eaten well today. I missed breckfast (naughty naughty) so had a brunch as I wasn't around at lunch time lol. I had a toasted sarny. Yes not the healthiest option but my main aim is to just cut down rather than cut out. I don't do deprivation, it makes me rebel lol. Had a busy day so lots of exercise. For tea I had some pasta salad and a yoghurt for pudding. That's it, nothing else today.

So pretty good really. Still stressed and not sleeping well but not much I can do for the moment

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