Things slightly less stressful for the moment

Haven't posted on here for a while. Been so blooming stressed out about my life, I didn't know what the hell to do. I had severe money problems, vehicle problems, work problems which in turn did affect my health a bit and really got me down.

Anyway, I battled on and for the moment I can have a bit of breathing space. I managed to scrape some money together and have now brought myself a new car. Nothing special, but it goes and gets me from a to b which is the main thing. It has 6months MOT and I will tax it next week. It's a PUG106, 1994 1.3l, little zippy thing lol. At least now I can go back to work and start to get some money coming in.

I'm still not out of the woods yet. Money is still non-exsistent in my life so this is my next priority. I have debts coming out of my ears so in a way it's good that I didn't get accepted for any loans of car finance etc as that would have just added to everything. I have two loans to pay off and my vets account. One of my loans will take years to pay off as I owe so much but my other loan only has £250 left on it and my vets account is £490 so nothing too impossible.

I need to decise what I am going to do with work. Do I stay where I am? It's a long term job but hours vary so that means my wage varies, which isn't good when I need to get back on track with my finances. Or do I get another job? I am keeping my eyes out and applying for anything that looks suitable, but am not going to make any drastic decisions as yet, specially as I haven't gone back to work yet but will asap.

My sister dropped the bombshell on me and mum that she is moving out in two weeks. Good for her but it will put even more of a financial strain on myself and my mum to pay things like the rent and council tax etc etc. More reason to get finances sorted. There is another issue which could possibly affect finances for me and mum but I am not going into that on here as that is a bit too personal.

I also need to decide what to do with my beloved Renault Laguna Estate. This is the car I have which has engine problems, hence buying my new little shed lol. I have to save up to either get a new car, in which case I will just scrap the Laguna or sell it as spares or repair, or I can save up to get the Laguna back on the road. Now I LOVE my Laguna, is the perfect car for me and being a big estate it tows my horses really well. God, I forked out a shed load of money on it back in the Spring with a brand new tow bar to tow my boys. I really want to keep the Laguna and get it back on the road BUT the extra money, even if only £100 would come in very handy now. Really don't know what to do on this one.

Really I could do with sitting down and writing a list of goals kind of thing as to what I need to do, in order, to get my life and finances sorted out.

Good news, I have a new client for my business. She lives about 40miles away BUT she is willing to pay all the extra travel costs so why not. Once I am back o work and in a routein then I will contact her and get some sessions booked up.

Horses are all well. Haven't done masses with them these last two weeks really as I have been too blooming stressed but they are my rock. My horses are my sanity and without them I wouldn't have a life.

Oh well, I am off to have some tea now, am starving. Diet has gone to total pot with everything going on, that's the last thing on my mind at the moment to be honest

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Not a bad day today really.

Rode my yummy horsey who is going really well at the moment, did some work in the garden and some fencing, all good stuff.

Due to my financial state and with no other option, I have taken the plunge and applied for a loan :( I have done this with Yes Loans and so far so good. I have been accepted by Yes Loans and am now waiting to hear if I will be accepted by a lender then I can have some cash to buy myself a car before mine really does die. It is getting worse and worse by the day so I pray it lasts. As much as I don't really want to go down the road of yet another loan I so hope I get it as without it I have no idea what I am going to do. If I get this one, it will mean I have the grand total of three loans to pay back now :( BUT needs must and all so hey ho!!

Diet has gone to total pot today, have eaten like an elephant. I'll be moaning come Sunday weigh in when I am the only one who hasn't lost any weight lol

I am pretty down today. All this stress about money and the car and I have everyone nagging me to hurry up and find a man to settle down with lol. It would be nice to have a man but I don't do anything to actually find one. I'm literally either at home, work, or at the yard doing the horses. Yes it would be nice to have a man to come home to but I am not unhappy with being sinlge, just get a bit lonley at times which I bet we all do.

Just a thought for you all, someone once told me "Learn from other peoples mistakes as you won't live long enough to make them all yourself".

I will leave you today with that thought

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Ok well I got up and weighed myself straight away today for my diet. Not going to publish my weight but MY GOD I am shocked. I know I had put on weight and was a lard arse but didn't think it was that bad - my poor horse!!!

Anyway, seeing how lardy I am am has made me more determined to shift the weight.

Today has been a better day. I am still screwed with regards to what to do with my car :S It is getting worse by the day and I have no idea how long it is going to last. I have had to resort to going online and applying for a couple of high interest loans. I have no other option. I am already in debt and don't want to take out anymore but what other option do I have? No one in my family is able to help me out, I have zilch in my bank so I have to try this. Currently I only work mornings and have asked about increasing my hours. Work have said I can increase them but by working evenings as well. I didn't want to do this but I definately am now. I need to sort my life out bigtime. If I knew my car would last until I could save up a bit, so a couple of months then I wouldn't bother with the loan. Will have to see what comes up I think.

Anyway, diet wise I have eaten well today. I missed breckfast (naughty naughty) so had a brunch as I wasn't around at lunch time lol. I had a toasted sarny. Yes not the healthiest option but my main aim is to just cut down rather than cut out. I don't do deprivation, it makes me rebel lol. Had a busy day so lots of exercise. For tea I had some pasta salad and a yoghurt for pudding. That's it, nothing else today.

So pretty good really. Still stressed and not sleeping well but not much I can do for the moment

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Been a better day today, think that is due to the fact that I did get some sleep last night lol.

Well I am still not convinced that it is the head gaskit gone on my car. I think it may just be the fact that the cooling system is so full of shit that water just isnt getting around the engine. Anyway I rang my local garage to get a price for have the sytem flushed and they quoted £100 MAX which is pretty good I though. Anyway, I thought my sister would lend me the cash just until the end of the month so that I could get this done but oh no, she won't. She has refused point blank to help which has actually really pissed me off.

So I am still screwed for the time being. I have had a couple of loan offers from friends which I may have to take but we will see what else I can come up with first.

Diet has gone much better today. I had a large glass of filtered water with some toast for Bfast. For lunch I had a salad and for tea I had a healthy eating readymeal and am about to eat a yoghurt for pudding so all in all not a bad day.

Just haven't had the courage to weigh myself yet though. We are having a weekly weigh in on one of the forums I am on which I think is a fab idea so muxt weigh myself in the morning so that I can work out how much weight I have lost in week one. I dread to read how much I weigh though, I bet it will be much more than I think.

Horses are all fine and dandy. I do love my boys, without them my life wouldn't be worth living.

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Why me?????????

I have been all geared up ready to start 2009 head on. I have been really positive about how this year is going to be such a good year, well, anything beats 2008 which was just a dier year for me and my family.

I think I must have "unlucky" in my DNA or something.

We took my car apart, and have found out that it is terminal. I AM SCREWED!! I have literally no money as work haven't been giving me enough hours so my bank account is on £0. I am on 2weeks holiday but with the way my car is now, I can't get to work anyway.

Basically I have 2weeks to get a new car, or a new engine.

The Head Gaskit has gone on my car and the engine and pipes are so full of gunk, nothing (water) is getting around, hence why after 2miles it is boiling over with the temperature so high.

I have no money, I am unable to get to work to earn money, I don't get paid my meezley wage until the end of the month so have no idea what I am going to do

I am so stressed out I am not sleeping, have no appetite (good start to the weight loss lol) and just have no idea what I am going to do. I need money to get a car but can't get money without my car. Family are unable to help, my credit is too dier to even ask for a loan or an OD so I honestly have no idea what the hell I am going to do.

I have put a mass of stuff on ebay, which if it all sells for min price will make me £100 so fingers crossed it will all sell. Feel free to look at my items - username 0776sam lol

So new year, crap start most definately :(

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Not a very good day :(

Well today started off with me getting up late. Then realised we had had a hard frost so spent ages de-icing the car. My car has been playing up lately but today it is definately dying. It starts and drives fine but get hot, doesn't even come close. Just about made it to my yard and fed and turned out the horses. Meant to start work at 8am, was 10mins late. So mad rush this morning. Decided that I would ring work and tell them to cover my shifts for tomorrow due to my car and I am on holiday for 2weeks as of Sunday so will have plenty of time to get it fixed.
So finished work and came home. Me and my sister had a look at my car and think it is just a blockage in the water pipes somewhere. We went out and brought supplies ready to strip it all apart tomorrow and see if we can fix it - worth a shot anyhow lol.
So finally got down to the yard to muck out and get beds ready for the horses. This seemed to take ages tonight. Got the horses in at 5pm, changed rugs and fed them etc etc and came home. I did put more water in the car before leaving the yard and this seemed to help. Car was still getting stupidly hot, but not as hot. I am hoping and praying that it is something simple that me and my sister can fix tomorrow as I really cannot afford to fix it, let alone buy a new car. I do love my car, it's a Renault Laguna Estate which I also use for towing the horses. Please don't let my car be dying, I so hope not.
Horses are all fine today, loved the long day out in the field and no one did any work which was even better. Will ride tomorrow no doubt, thats if my car goes back together after we have taken it apart lmao.
So stressful day but I am now off for 2weeks, woop woop. Things can only get better, can't they??
Diet went to pot today. Where I have been rushing around I just haven't had time to sit down and eat properly so have just been picking. I now feel absolutely starving, not good.

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Happy New year

Ok, new year so thought I would try something a little different and set up my own blog.

I am new to all this so you will have to bear with me a little bit I am afraid until I get the jist of things. I apologise now for any mistakes that I make lol

So, what's this blog for I hear you all cry. Well, lots of things really. My day to day highs and low's of life. My work with my horses, work in general, just anything and everything really.

One of the main reasons I set this up is that I am inspired by a friend of mine who has set up a blog to help with her New Years weight loss. A couple of years ago, I put on a lot of weight due to illness. Now I am better now and have been for sometime but I have struggled ever since to shift the weight which I put on. I am determined that this year is the year things are going to change.

2008 was such an awful year for me with financial worries (still here now), family illness and just the general day to day stresses. I have had my fair share of crap over the last 12months and am determined that 2009 IS going to be a better year, it has to be.

So, I plan to keep a note of everything here, good and bad.

I hope you enjoy reading it, maybe you can learn from my mistakes/successes and help me along the way.

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